Hello Boston.... Hello Beanywood.... This is your good ole X-Hollywood Reject, Craig Amabello reporting in from the bottom of the barrel of life in New England.
After 5 years of laboring in Vain... Sending out OVER 3,000 RESUMES... Approximately 6,000 Emails.... Countless phone calls.... Attempting to get ANY KIND OF LOW BUDGET FILM & VIDEO PRODUCTION WORK out here in New England.... Offering myself to individuals.... Companies.... Groups of people that may need a Professional DIRECTOR... SHOOTER... OR EDITOR with 25 YEARS EXPERIENCE...... I have come to the sad & Frustrating conclusion that......
It is impossible for ME to get ANY CRAPPY LOW PAYING GIGS OUT HERE DOING ANY CRAPPY LOW BUDGET PRODUCTION!!!!!
I GIVE UP ON THE BOSTON FILM MAKING COMMUNITY.... ON NEW ENGLAND DIRECTORS... ARTISTS... BUSINESSMEN & WOMEN.....
ON BOSTON & NEW ENGLAND PEOPLE IN GENERAL!
OR ANYBODY OUT HERE FOR THAT MATTER..... THAT EXPECTS YOU TO WORK LIKE A FRIGGIN "SLAVE" FOR NOTHING BUT THE BETTERMENT OF THEMSELVES & THE PROMISE OF "MAYBE" PAYING GIGS SOMEDAY IN THE DISTANT FUTURE!!!!!!!!!!
In 12 years.... On my WORST day's in Los Angeles.... On my Worst Gigs.... Shooting PORN.... For Low Budget.... DERANGED, NAZI, SCUM-BAG, FOREIGNERS... I Made MORE Money & was TREATED BETTER..... THAN ANY GIG I HAVE BEEEN OFFERED OUT HERE IN NEW ENGLAND IN 5 YEARS!!!!!!
Just let that sentence sink in for a minute Folks..... Imagine how BAD my Lowest Paying & Worst Days out in HOLLYWOOD could have been....... & THEY STILL HAVE BEEN BETTER DAYS & PAY..... THAN ANY GIGS EVER OFFERED OUT HERE!!!
That THOUGHT alone..... is so very disturbingly twisted & sad on SO MANY LEVELS.... as to actually BOGGLE THE IMAGINATION.... & MELT the Mind of any Vaguely, Self Respecting human being that would make ANYONE HOLD THEIR HANDS UP & SCREAM........
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH THS PICTURE??????".... "WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?"
I AM OFFERING MYSELF LIKE A CHEAP 10 DOLLAR TAIWANESE LADY BOY AT 3 AM ON A SATURDAY NIGHT IN BANGKOK WITH A ROOM FULL OF DRUNKEN, WHITE, AMERICAN BUSINESSMEN...... & I STILL GET NO OFFERS!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..........
What Amazes me is even more IS.... HOW THE HELL DO ALL YOU REST OF YOU PEOPLE OUT HERE IN NEW ENGLAND MAKE A LIVING DOING PROFESSIONAL PRODUCTION WORK ????
I don't have a freakin clue anymore than an Opium smokin Chinamen in a French Whorehouse selling vibrators to Lithuanian Lesbian Nuns, While Catholic Priests try to start their own Daycare center for School boys & can't fathom why..... things ain't going right for them!!!!
I am sick of PRETENTIOUS NOBODIES demanding MEETINGS & offering NO PAYING GIGS in Return! The few offers that I have had have been for NO MONEY... Just A Bunch of TALK about BACK END DEALS that MAY make us all lots of money somewhere in the future for some FAR OFF potential Projects.... BUT FIRST.... I NEED YOU TO WORK FOR ME FOR FREE!
That Crap talk is for LOSERS... BY LOSERS... & let me tell you...
ONE PERSON out of 1,000,000 MAY be worth that kind of CONSIDERATION.....
But none of these EGOTISTICAL... LOUDMOUTH.... SELF BLOATED... SELF RIGHTEOUS... IDIOTS that I have talked to out here are even worth doing business with for ANY money at all!!!!
REALITY CHECK:.... In the REAL WORLD.... You don't have your toilet fixed BUT FIRST TELL THE PLUMBER you need to have a meeting with them so that YOU can CHECK THEM OUT & then explain to them that if this job PAYS NO MONEY.... BUT if it goes ok... In the future you might have several more jobs for them that are much BETTER & ACTUALLY PAY REAL MONEY!!!
In what TWILIGHT ZONE DO THESE "ARTY FARTY"... SELF INVOLVED MORONS come from to think that this is not only NORMAL BEHAVIOR & LOGIC.......
BUT...... THAT IT HAS ACTUALLY BECOME "ACCEPTABLE".... & "STANDARD" PRACTICE OF DOING BUSINESS IN THE "MOVIE WORLD" OUT HERE!!!!!
This is all BULLSHIT SOCIO-PATHIC BEHAVIOR!.....
Don't EVER... let ANYBODY Convince YOU otherwise!!!!!!!!!
My last offer for work came from a Boston Business man that is running the "Boston Music Festival" and all he wanted from me was:
Put together 5 video production crews (of at least 3 people each) to shoot at 5 different nightclubs a night at destinations All over Boston for 5 straight days covering over 130 bands, (Also needing me to SHOOT Camera Myself at one of the clubs each night) & then put together an edited show for Broadcast on Cable, then do a DVD for "Best of performances", another edit for Website exposure, & one more video for the individual bands & only wanted to set up several KEY meetings with me & the other BIG Producers, cable company & businessmen while also scouting the locations of half a dozen nightclubs!
& get this............. HE WAS GOING TO MAKE ME A WEBSITE FOR ALL OF THIS WORK!!!!!!
In the REAL WORLD.... NOT THE BOSTON INSANE WORLD....
This was a $10,000 dollar gig just for myself.... And that would be a rock bottom low end price tag!
And this guy actually had the nerve to tell me that my Credentials were IMPRESSIVE & THAT HE HAD SEEN SAMPLES OF MY WORK & WAS SURE THAT I WAS NOT ONLY TALENTED, BUT HIGHLY SKILLED & THAT I WAS THE MAN FOR THE JOB & THAT HE DESPERATELY NEEDED THE SERVICES OF SOMEONE WITH MY BACKGROUND & KNOWLEDGE!!!!!!
& then he called me & emailed me several times BAFFLED that I wouldn't return his calls & set up Meetings with him & his people!
& then when I Politely & calmly & Professionally explained to this MADMAN That I work for Gringo dollars & actually need to MAKE REAL MONEY to PAY actual bills because My IMAGINARY FRIENDS JUST DON'T LIVE IN MY MIND! He actually got INDIGNANT & MENTIONED THAT HE WAS POTENTIALLY GOING TO THROW A QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS WORTH OF BUSINESS MY WAY & I WAS ACTING EXTREMELY UNPROFESSIONAL BY "BLOWING HIM & HIS OFFER OFF!"
Now Kids.... I ain't smokin crack... & I am not Delusional, or IMAGINING THESE THINGS..... But how could any SANE HUMAN BEING SAY THIS CRAP TO SOMEBODY & NOT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY ARE NOT TAKEN SERIOUSLY??????
So I am Utterly Baffled here folks..... I have no clue as to how I'm going to Survive.... Or how I'm going to get through this drought & RUT I'm in...... But I'll tell you this kids... I am no longer going to SUFFER THESE DELUSIONAL, INSANE, EGOMANIACS OUT HERE IN BOSTON ANY LONGER!!!!!
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...... I HAVE TO HOLD ON TO MY LAST SHRED OF DIGNITY & SAY "SCREW THIS BULLSHIT!"
It's sad.... But there are so many SMALL minded people.... So many JEALOUS PEOPLE OUT HERE IN BOSTON.... SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE.... "L S" (yes, the one from your very own Beanywood site) that act, think, walk & talk like THEY are "IN THE KNOW, HOLLYWOOD SHOW BIZ PEOPLE"...
But in fact are just very egomaniacal, jaded, close minded, Snobby, Elitist individuals that want to keep others down... refuse to Communicate (because god knows I have tried several times to get in touch with her & have always been extremely polite & Ass kissey... But this has been of no avail to me anyways)....
& I truly Hope you Good people out there understand that this type of behavior is SYMPTOMATIC OF NARCISSISTIC, PRETENTIOUS, BETTER THAN THOU, ARTY FARTY I AM "OH SO MUCH MORE HOLLYWOOD THAN YOU CRAP" That is bringing this city into the GUTTER FASTER THAN THE TWIN TOWERS COULD FALL!
We don't need another Arrogant idiot with power trying to build themselves up by tearing others down & feeling oh so SUPERIOR in the Process!!!
Boston people need to be Rational..... Human.... REAL....
STOP PRETENDING YOU'RE FROM HOLLYWOOD!!!!
HOLLYWOOD IS FULL OF SICK, TWISTED SCUM!
If this town ever has a chance of giving Talented, decent, hardworking, creative people a chance.... It needs to get real & come down of it's High Horse & start making sense in the REAL WORLD!
NOT THE STUPID SCREWED UP FAKE WORLD OF HOLLYWOOD!
1 HOLLYWOOD IS BAD ENOUGH KIDS....... WE DON'T NEED ANOTHER!
So to all the Decent, Talented & hardworking people out here in New England (because I know there MUST be at least a few of you out there)..... I wish YOU luck!
I have HIT A BRICK WALL out here in Boston..... I need to Re-Think.... Re-Plan... Re-build, what I was already trying to rebuild from my Twisted life left over from my Hollywood yesteryears.
But I do know this kids from experience.... Don't TRY to ACT like HOLLYWOOD.... HOLLYWOOD SUCKS!
Just be yourselves... Be real... Be decent to other Human beings.... Hollywood is HOLLOW.... SHALLOW.... HEARTLESS.... UNFORGIVING...... CRUEL... EMPTY.... DEAD.... COLD.
Ask yourself this people... Is this what you want to be when YOU grow up? Is that what you Aspire to? I hope not.
Wish me luck kids.....
Because..... As dear ole Bon Scott from AC/DC always said: it's a "LONG WAY TO THE TOP..... IF YOU WANNA ROCK & ROLL"!
Goodbye for now, from your X-Hollywood Show Biz Rebel......... Craig Amabello
P.S: Always remember to check out my work, Thoughts & Life at http://www.youtube.com/CraigsRealTv
Because Boys & Girls.... I will ALways tell it like it is..... EVEN IF IT HURTS Both..... YOU & ME!
I have done my best to have a sense of humor about this site.....
To make fun of the factthat after my very first blog..... Lindsay BLACKLISTED ME!
I truly, honestly, wanted to believe that SHE was joking, having fun, etc.....
But the simple fact that after 31 Blogs..... over 21,000 views.....
I DON'T EVEN RATE AS A SELECTED BLOGGER..... Those in charge here REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE ME!
I did everything that I could to be entertaining.... Funny... Informative... & talk about the Hollywood & the New england film community.
I seriously believe that quite a few people ENJOYED READING MY WHACKY BLOGS about life in Hollywood and the difficulty of breaking into show biz here, on the east coast.... But I will never know.
ONLY THOSE SPECIAL FEW...... THAT FIT INTO "The Beanywood Plan" seem to be Hi-lighted here on Beanywood.
This very EXCLUSIONARY ATTITUDE... AND PETTY POWER PLAYS IS EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO WARN PEOPLE ABOUT HERE FROM DAY ONE...
Beanywood (and the many people I have tried to contact about film work out here) seem to be mimicking ALL THE VERY WORST TRAITS OF WHAT'S WRONG WITH HOLLYWOOD!
This is why I left Hollywood after 12 long, hard, soul sucking, heart wrenching years and gave up and came home a COMPLETE BROKEN LOSER OF A MAN!
EGO'S... ATTITUDES... BIG MOUTHS... RAMPANT MEDIOCRITY... PETTINESS... JEALOUSY... FEAR... PHONINESS... HATRED... All abound here on the east coast and in the Film making community. It saddens me and truly Breaks my heart to see this happening here.
I have valuable information and real life stories... DIRECTLY FROM HOLLYWOOD... and I was just trying to pass this information on to THE GOOD, TALENTED AND DECENT PEOPLE OUT HERE ON THE EAST COAST.....
But it seems like it's all been in Vain and I can't even get started again in show business out here because of so many peoples PRETENTIOUS ATTITUDES AND HATRED TOWARDS MYSELF!
I truly believe that I haven't been able to make a dent in Production work out here and meet decent filmmakers because so many people out here... are just PLAIN JEALOUS OF ME AND THE FACT THAT I AM ONE OF THE RARE FEW PEOPLE THAT HAS ACTUALLY LIVED AND WORKED IN HOLLYWOOD!
And to make matters even worse..... now every time I log on to Beanywood.......
ITS FULL OF RACIST CRAP THAT HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH NEW ENGLAND FILM MAKING!!
What the hell is going on here people?????
WHY HAS THIS BECOME A PERSONAL FORUM ON RACISM IN AMERICA?????
WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT IS MENTIONING THIS???
AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT FEELS THIS WAY?
AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT CARES ENOUGH TO GO OUT ON A LIMB AND SPEAK MY MIND OPENLY AND HONESTLY ABOUT THESE DISTURBING THINGS???
HAVE I GONE CRAZY OR IS THIS DUDE POSTING THE WRONG BLOG ON THE WRONG SITE????
HELL YA.... THIS COUNTRY IS A RACIST COUNTRY...... THE POWERS THAT BE DESIGNED IT THIS WAY SO THAT WHILE "WE THE PEOPLE" ALL ARGUE AND BICKER AND HATE EACH OTHER FOR ALL THE STUPID, WRONG, PETTY REASONS..... THOSE IN CHARGE CAN ROB US ALL BLIND AND RAPE THIS COUNTRY OF EVERY LAST GOOD THING THAT USED TO EXIST HERE.........
ITS SAD..... BUT TRUE......... AND MAKES ME SO SAD...... BUT THIS AINT THE DAMN PLACE TO BE POSTING ALL THIS CRAP!!!!
HOW IRONIC AM I?????... I SHOULDN'T BE POSTING THIS CRAP EITHER!
I'M AN IDIOT!
BUT AT LEAST I UNDERSTAND THAT I'M AN IDIOT AND SHOULDN'T BE POSTING THIS CRAP HERE!
I hope some of you decent, creative people out there are living your dreams and enjoying your lives!
Rock on........ Bon Scott says Hello.
From your Deranged..... and yet, amazingly still happy and friendly X-Hollywood Reject..... Craig Amabello
PS: Don't forget to check out my INSANE VLOGS ON YOUTUBE!
Hello Beanywood..... Hello New England film makers...
Craig Amabello here, checkinin from the twilight zone where I have been floating aimlessly after welding Jet propulsion packs to kittens and launching them into outer space just so I could get a better view of planet earth!
I have a very serious question to ask... Have I personally done something wrong to the people here at Beanywood? Have I kicked their precious little doggy? Have I squashed their darling lil Kitty?
I ask this, because after 1 year and 27 blogs that I have written on this site and over 21,000 views.... I HAVE NEVER ONCE BEEN PLACED AS A "SELECTED BLOGGER"!
WHY??????....... DID I SAY SOMETHING TO OFFEND SOMEBODY?...... ARE MY BLOGS THAT CRAPPY?
I am sure many more people would stumble on my blogs, but how can they ever find them? I truly wish I knew what to do to get my blogs placed on the front page under the selected blogger section. I constantly see the same 1 or 2 people with 3 & sometimes 4 blogs in a row placed under the Selected blogger section. It makes it look like those few people are the ONLY ones writing Blogs here on Beanywood.
As childish & stupid as this sounds.... MY FEELINGS ARE HURT!.... I have even emailed the people that run this site & never heard back from them about this question. I do the best I can to make my writing INFORMATIVE..... TOPICAL.... HUMOROUS.... and POSITIVE about movie making here in New England.
Now I know that my blogs tend to get very cynical & negative at times, but I always try to have something POSITIVE to say at least once in each blog. But if my blogs are cynical, its just because I am commenting on what is happening to ME out here in New England trying DESPERATELY to get production work here on the east coast.
So if any of you people out there like reading my weird & hopefully humorous & informative blogs.... I would love it if you could let the owners of this site know that! ...... Or even leave some comments so that I would know if any of you out their like my Blogging style. Sometimes I feel so alone out here in outer space.... like nobody even gets my blogs... Or has any of their own stories to tell about production work out here in New England.
I am here to entertain & to inform..... & I hope I have done a little bit of both for you people who want to know more about film making out here in New England and film making in Hollywood.
Because I do know a little bit about both, because I am: Craig Amabello an X-Hollywood Reject.
PLEASE CHECK OUT SOME OF MY ROCK VIDEOS THAT I DIRECTED, SHOT AND EDITED OUT IN HOLLYWOOD AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK.... I would love to hear what people think of my work... I need feed back to know if my work is any good or not:
just go to: http://www.hollywoodeasttv.com/profile/craigamabello
ALSO CHECK OUT MY WHACKY VLOGS ON YOUTUBE.... THEY MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A COMPLETE IDIOT... BUT MIGHT JUST MAKE "YOU" FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOUR OWN LIFE!
http://www.youtube.com/craigsrealtv
Please Comment.... Rate.... and subscribe to my channel..... I always love to hear peoples opinions... even if its negative... As long as its real... & sincerely meant..... I don't care what you say about me..... BUT JUST SAY SOMETHING!
Hello Beanywood.... Hello New England Film Makers..... How are your lives going?????
Mine is in the gutter..... This site doesn't even acknowledge my existence after 25 posts & over 14 thousand views....... But hell.... I'm just a nobody BUM that spent 12 year working & living & paying my BILLS in HOLLYWOOD... Ya know... The "REAL DEAL".... A guy that knows SOMETHING about Hollywood... But I'm just POND SCUM compared to the REAL players out here in NEW ENGLAND!
So here's what I've been up to..... I got my first gig EVER out here in New England after almost 4 YEARS OF BEGGING PEOPLE FOR ANY CRAPPY PRODUCTION JOB..... It was as an editor for an online gambling website located in Beverly Mass... The pay was $17.25 an hour.... Just enough for me to buy crack.... (NO Hookers), Just lousy Crack... Anyways I took the job.. Smiled... worked hard... kept my mouth Shut & listened to MORONS Bossing me around.... I did what I was told... & after less then 2 months.... After going through 2 BOSSES... (the first being a nazi, Gestapo Rude Arrogant Loser... Who called himself a DIRECTOR... & spent all day trying to figure out ways to boss me around & I took his CRAP Daily.... HE was finally FIRED..... & then my NEXT boss... ended up being the SON of the owner... A completely UNHINGED, DERANGED, DANGEROUS, PSYCHOPATH of a LOSER who's LIFE'S AMBITION was to be a COP!!!!!!..... Long story short.... This pathetic loser... Who for some screwed up reason had the audacity to claim to be MY boss... ended up CHASING me OFF the JOB by threats of TAZERING ME.... Assaulting ME... BEATING ME up... (Because I refused to TEACH HIM Final Cut Pro) & HE was going to HUNT ME DOWN & GET ME.... All because I refused to take HIS CRAP anymore...... I never got payed my last weeks pay.... (I have since gone to the Mass Attorneys General's Office & complained about my pay & how I was THREATENED & CHASED OFF THE JOB.... & have not been PAYED as of YET.... BU T THEY are still looking into it!!!!!)..... And FOLKS...... That was just my FIRST & ONLY JOB offer that I finally got out here in NEW ENGLAND!...... So ya gotta wonder Folks..... Who the hell else is working out here for MONEY????..... Anyways..... Lets fast forward to just the other day...... After sending out over 2,000... Yes Kids, that's right..... OVER TWO THOUSAND Emails to EVERYBODY.... Looking for ANY kind of WORK..... I RECEIVED a COUPLE RESPONSES!!!!!!!!..... Whoopee!!!!!!!.... YAhhhhhhhhh.....
Here's response ONE: It was for an ad making $50 dollars a day as a BOOM Operator.... Yes sir, FIFTY big ones a DAY!.... I Gladly responded not once.... but TWICE with my PHONE NUMBER & QUALIFICATIONS & RESUME WITH LINKS TO MY WORK...... For $50 Freakin Bucks a DAY!..... I received a email back with NO NAME.... NO NUMBER...... NO INFORMATION WHATS SO EVER......... Just the CRYPTIC Words...... WE might be all set for this Boom gig... BUT HANG TIGHT..... WE MIGHT BE CALLING YOU!.... Zooweee..... Wowee....... THEY "MIGHT" be callin ME???????...... I eventually received a CALL at 7:00 AM On a Sunday Morning &, believe it or not... I MISSED THE CALL!!!!!!...... When I called the number back... (there was no Message.... NO Name... NO NUMBER.... & NO reference whatsoever as to what the call was about) I reached a Women who stated that HER Brother was making a MOVIE & MAYBE he HAD called ME?????..... Believe it or not... I still left MY NAME & NUMBER & REASON for calling & have YET RECEIVED a CALL BACK!!!!!!
Here's an example of another Response from another GREAT NEW England Film Maker........
RESPONSE NUMBER 2: This guy had an AD Looking for a camera man to shoot in DOWNTOWN Boston Mass for 3 HOURS with a PROFESSIONAL CAMERA..... I SENT him all MY info & patiently waited for a reply.... After several hours & hear back from him & the gig paid $60. Dollars...... Thats Right FOLKS..... SIXTY DOLLARS!!!!!!
Whopppeeeeee..... Zoweeeeee......... I can't believe MY good Fortune!.... I quickly & Politely EMAILED HIM right back & stated: Make it, $100 dollars.... & you have a deal!....... NEEDLESS TO SAY....... I NEVER HEARD BACK FROM THIS BIG TIME, NEW ENGLAND ENTREPRENEUR.........
& the FINAL KICKER OF THE DAY....... (This all occurred Yesterday folks, On Sunday May 11, 2008)... I emailed an AD FOR A BIG NEW ENGLAND CASTING COMPANY Looking for a CASTING DIRECTOR.... I told them, my background was primarily in Video Production, But that I was looking to EXPAND my horizons & felt that I could be quite good at working for a New England Casting Agency considering that I spent 12 years Working & Living in Hollywood California & that I have over 30 years in the Entertainment Business.......
I will now give you an EXAMPLE OF OUR EMAILS:
MY FIRST EMAIL RESPONSE TO THIS AD FOR WORK AT A NEW ENGLAND CASTING AGENCY:
On Sun, May 11, 2008 at 12:29 AM, Craig Amabello wrote: Hi, I noticed your post... I am qualified in video production & have over 30 years experience in Show business... I would like to speak with you about this position... Maybe I could be the right candidate for the job... I am looking to expand my horizons & would feel right at home dealing with many sorts of talented actors, etc.
I have enclosed my resume for you to look at. Thanx's Craig Amabello Located in: Southern New Hampshire. Contact me @: Laconnection101@aol.com
And of course my resume shows my MANY YEARS EXPERIENCE IN VIDEO PRODUCTION....
I then receive THIS BACK AS A REPLY FROM THIS BUSINESS PERSON...
On May 11, 2008, at 1:58 PM, XXXXXXX wrote:
Hi,
What can you offer Our Casting Company?
SO I THEN.... CALMLY... PROFESSIONALLY..... ANSWER HIM BACK WITH THIS, SINCERE RESPONSE!
On Sun, May 11, 2008 at 2:23 PM, Craig Amabello wrote:
A) I'M HONEST...... B) I'M HARD WORKING...... C) I'M INTELLIGENT....... D) I AM GOOD WITH PEOPLE...... E) I'M CREATIVE...... I write, make music, do photography & do Video.... F) I CAN SHOOT VIDEOS OF YOUR TALENT FOR AUDITIONS G) I CAN SHOOT STILLS OF ALL YOUR TALENT FOR HEAD-SHOTS, ETC. H) I CAN GIVE DIRECTION.... OR I CAN TAKE DIRECTION... I'm a team player.
And I have a good, basic, common sense about ALL the basics of Show business.... With over 35 years involvement.
Do you have any other questions that I could answer for you? Please feel free to ask me anything. Thanx's Craig Amabello
and this piece of crap MORON scum-bag HAS THE AUDACITY TO EMAIL ME BACK & SAY!
On May 11, 2008, at 2:26 PM, XXXXXXX wrote:
Thats wonderful Craig...but really didn't answer my question. WHAT CAN YOU OFFER MY COMPANY?
So I email this absolutely, Arrogant, Delusional, Hollywood WANNABE .... THIS RESPONSE:
May 11, 2008 5:31:33 PM EDT To: XXXXXXXX
From Craig Amabello:
MONEY?... BAGS OF GOLD?.... The best WHORES IN THE LAND?... DRUGS?????...... An Invitation to the White House????
DUDE.... I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL YOU MEAN BY THAT QUESTION???
IT'S A VERY NEBULOUS QUESTION.... VERY VAGUE..... VERY ESOTERICAL????
PLEASE.... I'M JUST A DUMB COUNTRY BOY WITH NO COLLEGE EDUCATION....
I LIKE THINGS SIMPLE & SWEET & SPELLED OUT FOR ME!!!!!!
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL YOU WANT ME TO SAY??????
I AM NOT GOOD AT PLAYING GAMES....... I'M A SIMPLE GUY......
REALLY DUDE..... DON'T YOU THINK YOUR GETTING A LITTLE STRANGE WHEN I DO THE BEST I CAN TO ANSWER SUCH AN OPEN ENDED QUESTION SUCH AS YOU GAVE ME & THEN YOU EMAIL BACK & SAY I DIDN'T ANSWER YOUR QUESTION????
CHRIST........ TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT??????????
This ALL pretty much explains MY HATRED TO THE NEW ENGLAND FILM COMMUNITY...... ALL THE PEOPLE THAT I HAVE COME IN CONTACT WITH OVER THE PAST 4 YEARS ALL ARE SO DESPERATELY ATTEMPTING TO " MIMIC" WHAT THEY THINK HOLLYWOOD TYPE PEOPLE WOULD ACT LIKE...........
PEOPLE.... THIS IS SO EVER WRONG!!!!.... Will will you people ever learn??????
Hollywood is made up of MOSTLY money GRUBBING sharks that would RAPE your lil sister or your mother for the next BIG DEAL!!!!
So many of YOU "NEW ENGLAND" FILM PEOPLE are so DESPERATELY TRYING TO MIMIC & FOLLOW THIS TYPE OF ATTITUDE & BEHAVIOR that it is DESPICABLE!.... DISGUSTING!!!!!!..... DEPLORABLE!!!!!...
PLEASE PEOPLE....... PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO MIMIC!!!!!!!
TO BE JUST ANOTHER HOLLYWOOD SCUM-BAG DOES NOT MAKE YOU CLEVER..... BETTER.... NOR, PROFESSIONAL.....
WE ARE HUMAN BEINGS HERE FOLKS..... WHY CAN'T WE HAVE THE SIMPLE COMMON COURTESY TO TREAT EACH OTHER WITH RESPECT??????
TRUST ME PEOPLE.... I AM ONE OF THE "ONLY PEOPLE" ON THIS DAMN SITE THAT HAS SPENT 12 LONG YEARS WORKING & LIVING IN HOLLYWOOD....... I HAVE SOME KNOWLEDGE OF THE PLACE.... I HAVE SOMETHING VALID TO SAY!!!!......
PLEASE PEOPLE.... I BEG OF YOU.... STOP TRYING TO MIMIC THE "WORST OF HOLLYWOOD!".....
Try to act like decent, civil, human beings with a little respect for other humans........ Life can still be good this way...... PLEASE PEOPLE...... UNTIL YOU HAVE SPENT THE AMOUNT OF TIME THAT I HAVE SPENT DEALING WITH HOLLYWOOD ASSHOLES........ YOU WILL SOON REALIZE WHAT A SIN IT IS.... FOR "ALL OF US" TRYING TO DEAL WITH "PRETEND" WANNA-BE HOLLYWOOD ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!!!!
DOES ANYBODY OUT THERE HEAR WHAT I AM SAYING??????
DOES ANYTHING I SAY MAKE SENSE TO ANYBODY OUT THERE??????
I AM SO LOST & FRUSTRATED OUT HERE IN NEW ENGLAND..... KNOWING THAT ALL I DEAL WITH OUT HERE ARE LOUD MOUTH WANNA-BE HOLLYWOOD SCUM........
IT HURTS US ALL..... NOT JUST AS A BUSINESS.... BUT AS A PEOPLE AS A WHOLE!
PLEASE..... I BEG ALL OF YOU TO HEED MY WORDS.... THIS IS WHY AFTER 12 YEARS OF LIVING & WORKING IN HOLLYWOOD THAT I LEFT!
I COULDN'T STAND THE FAKE... PHONEY.... BULLSHIT... RUDE... ARROGANT BASTARDS ANYMORE!!......
& NOW I COME BACK HOME TO NEW ENGLAND & FIND EVERYBODY & THEIR BROTHER TRYING TO MIMIC THIS VERY SAME BEHAVIOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE PEOPLE....... WHAT I AM SAYING IS TRUE!.... I CAN NOT BE THE ONLY ONE EXPERIENCING THIS BEHAVIOR OUT HERE!!!!!
GROW UP....... BE HUMAN.... STOP BEING RUDE, DELUSIONAL ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!
From your very SAD, DEPRESSED X- HOLLYWOOD REJECT...... Craig Amabello.....
I will always tell it like it is...... Please people.... HEED MY WARNINGS!!!!!!!!!!
Yes folks, you heard it hear first... Craig Amabello found a job as an editor at a Boston productionfacility!
Do you know what this means?
I can finally stop beating up & robbing helpless old ladies as they leave Wal-mart with their prescriptions... I mean money.
I no longer have to sell crack to school children... (kids these days aren't really into crack that much because they are all high on mommies prescriptions from Wal-mart)... Remember, Wal-marts the kinder, gentler people store... They won't allow dirty words, or nudity that would pervert fragile little minds... But they have no problem selling GUNS & DRUGS to the Filthy masses to blow holes in both your MIND & BODY!
America... What a concept..... Ya just gotta love the Lunacy of it...
As I now have a full time job editing Commercials for the web I can finally start paying for my real Addiction...... craigstv. I have been attempting to get my web channel off the ground for many years now & it looks like I'm about to start reaching phase one of a multiphase project!
With the pennies I will be earning from my editing gig, I can afford studio time, tape stock, wardrobe & props to kick off my deranged & whacky web shows. It will be quite raw, wild, raunchy, disturbing & yet, artful, delicate, educational, informative & Delicious....
My shows will have lots of Web Cuties.... Hunky men... Serious Humor & wonderful Rock & Roll for the Masses to laugh... Scream... Boo & Hiss at.
I promise there will be something disturbing for everyone. The most discriminating of tastes should be shocked, mortified, horrified & slack jawed once I am through with my over the top Dark, twisted brand of Sickness & humor.
Remember kids... It only took me 3 damn years to find a real job in film & video production on the internet.... I hope YOU people have much better luck than I.
In the mean time if you want to check out a little of what I am all about...
GO TO: http://www.youtube.com AND SEARCH FOR: CRAIG AMABELLO
I have lots of my old stuff up there.... My very first Original "Reality TV Show... (long before such an animal actually existed) & old rock & roll from my old band. I also have several new Vlogs talking about my fall from grace in life & Hollywood & just general garbage that might make you laugh... Smile... Giggle... Or maybe just PUKE!
Who knows... maybe you fine folks of Boston might find it interesting to see what crap pours forth from a demented X-Hollywood Outcast such as myself.
Please check it out & post your comments... I would truly love to know what people really think!
Don't be shy.... Tell it like it is.... Should Craig Amabello be put into a mental Institution? Locked up in prison & throw away the key? Or should I be put on stage as the opening act for Hillary Clinton's Campaign for the presidency of the Untied States of America?
You tell me....... I really, really wanna know what people honestly think.
Am I a misunderstood Genius?... Or just a Moron?
Only you folks can tell me that... & I beg of you to watch my stuff on youtube & post your TRUE feelings.
Well, gotta go... I'm trying to get a hold of Kevin Smith so I can work on his new movie " Zak & Mira make a Porno"..... (Because I do know a thing or 2 about Porn).. Wish me luck & don't give up the good fight.
REMEMBER: We are surrounded by Mental Midgets that think they are giants.... But ignore these cretins... For eventually they will fall down & not be able to get back up.
For I am Craig Amabello.... A Weeble.... Because... Weebles Wobble.... But they Don't Fall down!
Rock On.
Your truly Demented Reporter & X-Hollywood Reject, Craig Amabello
Your truly demented Reporter and X-Hollywood reject, Craig Amabello, reporting in from the trenches of life.
Buried deep in my bunker I have been for so long, fending off shells from a constant barrage of friendly fire, one sometimes forgets, that there are humans up above. Humans that are flesh & blood. Kind, decent, thoughtful humans that are buried way down deep, beneath this fleshy, faulty, weak exterior of ours.
It can be so easy to constantly feel lost, distracted, in this never ending battle over the day to day madness of life, that we all don't just go insane & want to jump off a building at times. That sometimes... On very rare occasions, one can actually bump into great human beings that walk this earth, unencumbered by the normal morass of day to day bullshit like so many others have gotten so used to.
When one meets humans such as this, it takes a moment to recognize them for what they are... THE REAL McCOY... THE REAL DEAL... NO FAKES... NO FRAUDS... NO BULLSHIT ARTISTS... No Morons MASQUERADING as humans.... But an actual flesh & blood soulful person. A person with a Heart. A person with a Soul. A human with a Belief system that doesn't always match up with what we have all been told and taught should match. But a human, with Integrity that goes out there, to LIVE THEIR DREAMS.
These rare humans, are a joy to behold when one takes the time, to climb out of the hole that we all sometimes throw ourselves into..... To open our eyes for a while & see that Humankind isn't all in the Gutter.
These people are not always rich, famous, & loved by all. Nor have they done great deeds for mankind....
But they are simply: Human Beings with a deep commitment to not DISHONOR LIFE!
To live it on their own terms... To do what they Truly believe in, No matter what the cost... No matter what others say... They are ready to stand up & be counted. To do Battle with the day to day Gods & Demons of life that help to keep us all down. To live life, in such a manner as to Not be Disrespectful to other Humans. To still treat others with kindness, dignity & respect, while still attaining their goals. This is what makes a GREAT HUMAN.
To witness a decent human being in action is a wonder to behold. A true JOY that makes life... That much more bearable......
I had the pleasure to work with such stellar human beings as that today.
What the hell does all this crap have to do with film making?
Well.... I was hired today to do camera work for a film that is going to air on PBS. I spent the day at Lowell General Hospital in the ER room shooting some scenes for a documentary that has been in production for well over 6 months. The brainchild of a Doctor Ryan. And his producer Nancy. With the help of a bright young Screenwriter, ( who worked today as a PA ) named Nicole.
This project is the baby of this young Doctor, who after spending most of his natural life, chasing after a dream of becoming a doctor, has finally reached his goal & realizes...... ITS ALL WRONG!... It is not what he thought it would be..... & now, He's made the Insane, But thoroughly brilliant & soulful move...... TO QUIT...... To obliterate a career that can virtually guarantee him success in this great country of ours. But at what cost does that success come? What part of your soul are "YOU" willing to give up, to LIVE "YOUR" dreams?
To me, That a person could do that... To reach their goal after almost 15 years of hard work & struggle... & then to just walk away from all that life could hold for you.... As far as Prestige, wealth, Power, respectability, etc.... Is absolutely Astounding.
This Doctor has become a Director & put his professional life on hold to do a documentary on "Doctor Burn out & how it affects patient care". I think a very important subject, with a very sensitive subject matter.
My long winded, convoluted point is this....... This crew was a breeze to work with.... Calm.... Confident... Coordinated... Respectful... with an exact knowledge of what it is they are trying to show in their documentary. What they are trying to achieve by doing something so potentially unpopular as this... & they pulled it off with such professionalism, that it helped.... For a tiny bit... To reaffirm my waning belief... That some humans.... Are actually Cool!.... Some people actually say what they think... & think what they say... with no bullshit factor in between.
Bravo.. Hooray.. My hats off to REAL HUMANS... That ever so precious, rare breed, that actually lives life by their OWN standards... THEIR own beliefs.
Thank you America... Thank you world... I had a good, productive day today....
Makes me feel like I'm back in Hollywood again..... Doing what it is that I am meant to do..... "MAKE ART". Have Fun... Be Creative!
Its days like this, that sometimes makes me believe, That ALL HUMANS don't Suck!
What are "YOU" people going to be in life? A Phony, Shallow money chaser? Or the real McCoy, being a decent human being & still living life.... On your own terms.
For I am the Real McCoy.... Your truly Demented reporter of life & X-Hollywood Reject, Craig Amabello
