I don't know what it takes to get recognized, respected & noticed on this website by the people in charge?
I can't get an email back from them about how to become a "Selected blog".
Or, How to become Acknowledged as a legitimate blogger on this site?
I am like a Ghost in the Machine... A phantom dream... I can't get no damn RESPECT!
They won't put me as a Selected blog.... Or put me on the front page of Past blogs... Or even acknowledge my existence by returning my emails... But they do it for so many others....
But........... NOT FOR ME!.... WHY?
Did I do something wrong???
Did I kick their little doggy??
Did I strangle their Pet Kitty??
This is starting to remind me of my Good ole days in Hollywood when nice Show Biz Celebrities like: Gene Simmons, Lemmy Kilmeister, Jane Seymour, Kirstey Alley, all Hated me & yet I don't recall ever doing anything to them to get such a Violent reaction.
But yet, Sean Lennon enjoyed my company... Angela Bowie thought I was a darling... Ronnie James Dio Protected me... Burt Reynolds told me I did a really great job & my Only True Hollywood Friend "Bruce Campbell" Loved me!... What did these people see in me that so many others couldn't???
Am I to be forever Misunderstood & maligned?
From Coast to coast to Sea to Shining sea...
From Hollywood to Beanywood...
Peons to Stars vacillate between their love & hatred of my personality...
CAN I EVER GET A DAMN BREAK?
I have gotten off the track again...... Back to my point:
I have written 20 blogs here which have included various info on:
Productions in the New England area... With such varied content as: Real Television commercials... Presidential candidate web promos... Motor-cross X game stunt show coverage... Documentary shooting for ER Doctors... Rock & Roll live concert events... Quasi-Religious Short films... I've spoken on such Hot topics as: Show Biz deals, heartbreaks & Busted dreams from the very Beast Herself... "Hollywood".....
But still it seems I do not seem to RATE HERE... Why?
If a guy that spent 12 long years slugging it out in the trenches of Hollywood California...The very CessPit that is Show biz Hell itself... can't get acknowledgment here.... Then what does it take?
I have attempted to broach such topics as Human kindness... Hard work... Creativity... Dedication... Respect for others... Being a Team player... The ethics of doing REAL PAYING gigs....
BUT STILL..... NOTHING... NADA-- ZIP.......
What does a guy gotta do to get recognition here by the POWERS THAT BE?
Am I like some Bastard Step child?... The Black sheep of the family?... The drunken Uncle that says dirty, awkward & embarrassing things at the dinner table in front of mixed company?
I am ever so Confused... Is this Professional Jealousy?... Pettiness? Or just plain Childishness???
What can a poor boy do, But sing for a Rock & Roll band?
Anybody have any clues out there for me?
Anybody wanna give me any pointers on the Human Condition that I don't seem to have a clue about?
Am I just so far gone from banging my head against the brick wall of life that I have lost all of my sense?
I attempt to truly be Enlightening... Humorous... Insightful... Educational... About Hollywood... Life... New England Productions & REAL show Biz Examples....
Is this not what this site is supposed to be about????
I just don't know anymore......
IS IT ME?
So I propose this:
If any of you fine folks of Boston want to see me gone....
To VOTE ME OFF OF THIS BEANYWOOD SITE...
Then please POST YOUR VOTES!
I am SERIOUS!
IF THERE ARE 10 VOTES POSTED THAT WANT ME TO DISAPPEAR....
THEN I WILL GLADLY GO...
I don't want to be were I am not Invited.... Wanted... Or appreciated....
PLEASE.... POST YOUR VOTES...
SHOULD CRAIG AMABELLO STAY BLOGGING ON THIS SITE?
OR DO YOU WANT ME TO GO?
The choice is now left to THE PEOPLE OF BOSTON.
We live in a Democracy.... (Albeit, a very crooked, Corrupt & at times, Insanely Inept bureaucracy, that borders at times on being a Fascist, Dictatorial, Totalitarian Nazi Regime).... So lets see if THE PEOPLE WILL TRULEY SPEAK UP....
CAST YOUR VOTES TODAY... DO NOT DELAY.... TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE....
If 10 of you want me to go... I will go, with my tail between my legs, running back to the Hills, (The Hollywood hills that is)... A place were I seem to fit in much better than here in New England... The place of my Childhood.
IT IS ALL IN YOUR HANDS NOW FINE FOLKS OF NEW ENGLAND.
Oh ya..... Thanks to the few people that have answered my ads... Said nice things about me... & seemed to understand my Eclectic style.... I truly do appreciate your understanding & good will.
And if any of you actors & Actresses out there want to contact me about comedy Sketches I am in pre-production on for really insane, cutting edge & funny Web shows... Please contact me: laconnection101@aol.com.
I am also looking to hitch up with a few cool, dark humored writers to help me put my ideas to scripts for full length feature films & Shorts, please let me know.
Keep believing in yourselves... Don't kick a dog when he's down... & have fun creating cool, entertaining, & Profitable stuff for the Bewildered Masses....
I know I sure am.
Signed, Your truly Demented Reporter & X-Hollywood Reject, Craig Amabello
Hope all of you wonderful people have fun at the big shin dig tonight....
Me? I can't go because I gotta start writing my memoirs so that I can sell myself... (yes, Just like a REAL Prostitute does) so that I can finally start getting my life & times on film & make a few hundred million. ( I'm running a little short on cash these last few years, with Hollywood Leaving me flat broke, In-debt, shattered & completely Unhinged and all).
Did I ever mention what a Horrible Bitch Goddess Hollywood truly is? The Land of the Leapers... The land of the Un-dead... The City of Lost Souls & Lost Angels... The blackness from within the golden realm of Globes & the hardened Angels of alcoholic Oscars, that roam the studio back-lots never change.
As the interns drive themselves over the cliffs of insanity on those twisted mountainous roads, on the way up to their Masters Malibu Mansions that sit on the edge, of the Brink of disaster... These masters, who themselves, are spiraling out of control on their own way down, as these newcomers climb up, just to descend into the beginning of the end.
The sickness rolls in, like the thick smog that stretches thru the night & into the hot desert dawn, as the daylight breaks on the Blackened, ashened faces of stunned children as they weep for mercy.
The relentless Propaganda machine pounds at their wee little hearts & destroys all that carelessly fall into its merciless path of indeterminable wholesale destruction.
At night, you can still hear the children cry out, as the desert wind stops to blow & the shadows fall, onto the sinners beautiful suntanned faces, as they crawl thru the valley of death in drunken disorder to end up just another, nameless, faceless, casualty of war by days end.
The Boulevard of Broken dreams was built on the blood of the innocent. As the neon signs that illuminate the night & hide the rot of the valley by day, shatters like cheap glass into the mouths of those that get so close that they can actually taste, feel & smell the rancid decay of death that permeates the hollow hollywood air.
Oxygen so thin, the altitude so high, that they can hardly breathe, as they gasp at their last breath of silence, as the blood drips down from their battered hands clutching their Emmys, Oscars & Golden Globes that can be bought in Tijuana for a pittance.
The old school stars know better than to play with matches, but the newcomers never learn. They march in, day after day, arriving by bus, train & planes, clutching onto their dreams... These fresh faced innocents think that they will not get burned by the shimmering lights that shine from the plastic streets that scream of fame & fortune... These streets only bring darkness & decent into madness to the many who have failed & lost their way.
These dreamers, these schemers, of whom most likely, no one will ever be seen or heard from again... for that is the way of the She Demon that prances in the daylight & masquerades as a pretty harlot. But as night comes, the true light shines down from the hills & unmasks the rotten, befouled devil that is the true Hollywood...... in the never ending cycle that eats up & spits out the weak & innocent into the streets like broken toys a child throws away from boredom.
Like vampires... the bloodlust never ends... And once the innocents have been turned... Like a trick in the night... They to, in turn, become the masters keepers of the gates of delusions, as the new ones come running into & at, the shiny bright lights of hollywood.. These lights, that attract so many, like a moth to a flame, are nothing what you think they are... These decoys of illumination are nothing other than a train... A train that is coming straight at you... ready to run you over & vanquish your soul. Another lamb... left to slaughter.
For that, my dear friends, Is the True Hollywood. What no book, magazine, or person will ever dare talk about or tell you. For she is a mistress without a heart or soul & she will steal your dreams & blind your eyes. And then, just for spite, she will steal your children's dreams & still come back for more, until the blood has gone dry & she has sucked the life out of all your brethren.
But I still miss Hollywood... Each & everyday.... I still dream of her... For I am smitten... I am hooked...
For I am... Craig Amabello... An X-Hollywood Reject... Who terribly misses his Home.
P.S: I gotta get a 3 picture deal, just for starters, so that I can catch up to my hero.... Sam Raimi.
I am not a fancy man.... I did not go to any fancy college.... I am self Taught.... I used to get jobs by word of mouth in Hollywood..... Out here in Boston, I do not know anybody.... So I have been searching for professional production work for several years out here with absolutely no luck at all!
The only way I know how to get work from new clients out here is to send them my resume.
When I do......... I NEVER HEAR BACK FROM ANYONE!
Can anybody out there give me a clue as to what I am doing wrong?
This is a Typical example of what kind of responses I get when I send out my resume to people. Most people never even have the common courtesy to even bother to email me back. But the few that do, ALL seem to have a tendency to be QUESTIONING the validity of my Resume.
POTENTIAL EMPLOYER MR X RESPONSE:
On Sep 4, 2007, at 10:42 PM, MR X wrote: It's a nice resume but I couldn't find anything about you or Prey of innocence under michael deluise.
MY RESPONSE:
Look Dude.... What the hell do you expect to find?
I met Michael Deluise while working on Waynes World. We spent a day working together & he got to know me. He liked me, told me he had just shot this little film that he was working on & needed it edited. So 3 weeks later, after Waynes world was wrapped, Michael & I spent 3 days editing his film. At the time I was doing all my editing in my shitty lil apartment in the Valley.
Editing is intense... Editing under a 3 day deadline is EXTREMELY INTENSE. Michael had already pre-booked a theatre in Burbank to showcase his new film & we had to finish this so that it could be brought to the lab to be blown up to 16 mm film for projection.
We spent those difficult 3 days, Rolling on the floor laughing... Yelling... Arguing.... Laughing some more... crying, (from laughing so hard) & then we finally finished the edit. It came out pretty good. He liked it. I was happy with it.
I don't recall if I even put my name on the film as editor. Many projects that I worked on never had my name attached. All I wanted was to be paid & that, was that. I didn't care about stupid credits then, (I do now). Money was all I wanted. I was never expecting to be famous from working on other peoples projects, so payment of services was all I ever cared about. (besides, delivering a good product).
Michael screened his movie 1 week later to a decent crowd & it was well received. I never went to the premiere, (because that's not the kind of guy that I am). Like I told Angela Bowie a few months later.... "I don't do parties or premieres". I am just weird like that. Screw name recognition, I just wanted money. (Now I do want recognition & MONEY...... Funny how things change with time).
Maybe Michael changed the name of the film. I don't know. Actually, I don't even remember now what the damn film was about.
Do I have any proof of actual, tangible, photographic or Video evidence of this encounter with Michael Deluise, or my editing work on his film?........................................................................................................................................... NO
Do you think I had a Freakin Biographer following me around & documenting any of this?...................... NO
Was it an academy award nominated film? ......................................................................................................... NO
Did it pick up a golden globe? ................................................................................................................................ NO
was it on tv & recieved 5 Emmy's? ......................................................................................................................... NO
Was it a nice little short film that Michael & his Brother enjoyed making & then hired me to edit?............ YES!
WHAT THE HELL WHERE YOU EXPECTING TO FIND OUT ABOUT THIS MOVIE?????
THAT MY NAME WAS ON THE CREDITS?
AS FAR AS MYSELF IS CONCERNED.....
AT THIS POINT IN TIME........ I'M A GOD DAMN NOBODY.........
WHAT WHERE YOU LOOKING TO "FIND OUT" ABOUT ME?????????
I never claim or claimed that I am anything other than what I am....
A talented professional with a life time in Show business. Which also includes, 25 years experience in the craft of Video Production. I am also a Long time veteran of working & living in Hollywood California, Where I did all kinds of Freelance gigs, for all kinds of Crazy people.
I have just not "Made It" as of yet. It doesn't mean that I am a Lier. My resume has nothing but Low level gigs, that paid crap. But this resume seems to antagonize, agitate & aggravate more people than not!
I have sent my resume out to over 1,500 people in the last several years & I have gotten absolutely ZERO Work from it!
In fact.... I almost never even get a REPLY BACK.
I send my resume out to people in the Boston area that are looking for professionals.
I almost never send my resume out Unsolicited.
These are people with online ads that are specifically looking for professionals.....
SO WHAT GIVES??????
WHAT AM I DOING WRONG????
I AM THOROUGHLY BAFFLED....... FOR THE LIFE OF ME, I CAN NOT EVEN GUESS AS TO WHAT I AM DOING WRONG THAT MAKES PEOPLE QUESTION EVEN A CRAPPY RESUME LIKE MINE?
It's so damn insulting to repeatedly... send my resume off to.... (more than likely, some damn NOBODY).... Not that that should matter, because people are still people... humans are still humans... We all deserve some sort of respect...
But........ Why do I have a sneaky feeling that its just another bum, with a high & mighty attitude, JUDGING ME.... BECAUSE I SEND OUT A RESUME THAT LOOKS SO DAMN GOOD.....
I AM SICK OF BEING JUDGED MY WHOLE LIFE BY NOBODIES!
DON'T HIRE ME IF YOU DON'T WANT TO.....
BUT DON'T CONSIDER ME A LIER BECAUSE YOU.... FOR SOME REASON OR ANOTHER, CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT MY RESUME IS REAL.
I AM JUST LOOKING FOR GIGS........ NOT TO BE JUDGED ON WETHER OR NOT I HAVE ACTUALLY DONE WHAT I CLAIM I HAVE DONE...... OR IF I AM LYING!
HIRE ME..... GIVE ME 5 MINUTES ON YOUR SET.... & YOU WILL KNOW WETHER OR NOT I AM SOME FAKE, PHONEY, LYING, SCUMBAG REALLY QUICKLY!
AM I INSANE TO FEEL THIS WAY?
AM I CRAZY TO MAKE SUCH A BIG DEAL OF, YET ANOTHER PERSON, NOT HIRING ME.... BUT GOING OUT OF THEIR WAY TO JUDGE ME... QUESTION THE VALIDITY OF WHOM I CLAIM TO BE!
WHAT SCARES ME THE MOST IS THAT..... I AM NOT CLAIMING TO BE SOME BIG TIME DIRECTOR LIKE SAM RAIMI.... I AM JUST CLAIMING TO BE A SMALL, LOW LEVEL PLAYER IN A HUGE FIELD THAT HAS SPENT A LOT OF TIME WORKING IN HOLLYWOOD....
If anyone out there has any other stories that are relative to this I would love to have you post them. I am seriously wondering if it is "JUST ME"...... Or have other people in Boston experienced this odd Phenomonen about the Boston Film community.
Hope you are all having a good life...... Having Fun,
Your Truly Demented reporter & X-Hollywood Reject,
Craig Amabello
On Sep 4, 2007, at 10:42 PM, MR X wrote: It's a nice resume but I couldn't find anything about you or Prey of innocence under michael deluise
From: Craig Amabello To: MR X@hotmail.com> Subject: editor gig
Date: Mon, 3 Sep 2007 01:14:43 -0400
Hi, I noticed your post.... I would be perfect for this!...... I am a Editor & I Specialize in video & audio for the Web. I am fast, Professional, & I do great work. I have enclosed my resume for you to look at. Thanx's Craig Amabello Located in: Southern New Hampshire.
To see samples of my work Check out: http://www.americanartistsinc.com
PROFESSIONAL SUMMARY: Over 25 years experience in video production as a Director, Camera Operator, Photographer, Editor, DVD Author, Graphics Artist & Web Designer. 12 years spent working in Los Angeles California as a Freelance Director & production company. Extensive skills, talent, and knowledge of the entertainment Industry.
RELATED EXPERIENCE:
FILM PROJECTS & RELEASES:
BEHIND THE SCENES SPEC DOCUMENTARIES: Director/Cameraman/Editor: "Army of Darkness", "Wayne's World", "Where the day takes you", & "The Bodyguard".
PREY OF INNOCENCE: Editor: film by Michael Deluise of "21 Jump street fame".
TELEVISION PROJECTS & AIRINGS:
HISTORY CHANNEL: "The History of Drugs" Series. Editor/Colorist: Timothy Leary's segment contributor.
VH1's PORN TO ROCK II: Cameraman/editor: Segment contributor on Johnny Toxic piece.
HOLLYWOOD ROCKS Pilot Episode: Cameraman/editor: Featuring Ronnie James Dio, (Black Sabbath), Lemmy Kilmister: (Motorhead), & Don Dokken: (Dokken).
BOB VILLA'S SHOW: Audio Tech: Segment on the Cape.
FINIS TV, STATION 1: 2nd Camera: Interviews with Bon Jovi, M.C Hammer, and Kiss.
THE REAL ESTATE SHOW: Cameraman/Editor: Various segments on New Hampshire.
HARD COPY: Audio Tech: Interview with Burt Reynolds.
WNDS TV "CANDLEPIN BOWLING": Cameraman: Entire season of their #1 Show.
GERMAN TV: 2nd Camera: Bay Watch segment. Interviews with David Hasselhoff & Pam Anderson.
KTLA NEWS SEGMENT: Audio Tech: California Governor Documentary piece.
FOX NEWS: Audio Tech: L.A Mayor reporter piece.
POLITICAL CAMPAIGN PIECE: CLINTON 1996 RE-ELECTION PROMO SPOT: Audio Tech: Various TV Celebrities promo piece for the N.H state primary.
MUSIC PROJECTS:
SPEC MUSIC VIDEO: Director/Cameraman/Editor: "Black Label Society".
JOHNNY TOXIC MUSIC VIDEOS: Director/Cameraman/Editor: "Superwhore", "Slam Jam", & "Happy".
THEATRE GIGS:
HOLLYWOOD ACTORS STUDIO: Cameraman/Editor: An afternoon with, "Sir Anthony Hopkins".
SCIENTOLOGY CELEBRITY CENTER: Cameraman: An original Play with Bart Simpson.
LIVE EVENT PRODUCTION:
LIVE CONCERTS AT: "HOUSE OF BLUES", "THE VIPER ROOM" & WAAF'S, "LOCOBAZOOKA": Director/Cameraman/Editor: Various Bands & Members of: Aerosmith, Kiss, Black Sabbath, Ozzy Osbourne, Dio, David Lee Roth, Guns & Roses, Tesla, Shine Down, Skindred, Clutch, Shadows Fall, Saliva, Quiet Riot, Motorhead, Alice Cooper, Kansas, Mr. Big, LA Guns, Cinderella, Steely Dan, Steve Miller, Tin Machine, Rainbow, and many other bands, Individuals & Artists.
CALIFORNIA BEAUTY PAGEANTS: Technical Director/Cameraman/Editor: "Miss Hollywood", "Miss Burbank", & "Cal State Miss Teen".
CALIFORNIA FITNESS PAGEANTS: Technical Director/Cameraman/Editor: All State Fitness Championship shows.
PROMOTION PROJECTS & AD CAMPAIGNS:
PEPSI COLA PROMO: 2nd Unit Camera/Audio Tech: Internal Company party Promotion.
TIMOTHY LEARY'S, "last video project": Graphic Design & Post Production: For Retina Logic.
UNITED AIRLINES: 2nd Unit Camera: Promo Commercial Check.
UNIVERSAL STUDIO'S PROMO: 2nd Unit Camera: Producer Sales Pitch.
PAPA SKYNYRD: Editor/Sound Design: book promo for Lynyrd Skynyrd biography.
BACKSTAGE PASS: Cameraman/Editor: Angela Bowies Promo For book tour.
PARAMOUNT PICTURES: Cameraman/Editor: Promo for "The Mommies TV Pilot".
INDUSTRIALS & COMMERCIALS:
SKEECHERS: Audio Tech: Commercial
AVIS RENT A CAR: Audio Tech: Commercial
NORTHROP INDUSTRIES: 2nd Unit Camera/Sound Design: Industrial Internal Video.
LOS ANGELES POLICE DEPARTMENT: Audio Tech/Editor: Interview of Chief Darrel Gates for Internal use.
METROLINK SAFETY VIDEO: 2nd Unit Camera/Audio Tech: In-house Training video.
SPECIAL SKILLS:
Director, Cameraman, Still Photographer, Technical director, Jib/Boom Operator, "Rock solid" hand held camera operator, Live Multi-Camera Switcher, DVD Author, Off-line/Online Editor, Web Designer, Graphics artist, Musician, Sound Designer, Etc.
EQUIPMENT LIST:
I CAN GET ANY PIECE OF GEAR, IF GIVEN 24 HOURS NOTICE.
But I do Own:
3 Macintosh Desktop Computers: (Dual 1 Ghz G-4 / G-4- 450 MHz / Mac 9500) Digital Video/Audio/Graphics Production Editing Suites Set-up with: (Adobe Premiere, Final Cut Pro, DVD Studio Pro, Photoshop, After Fx, Pro Tools & Digital Performer. Cinema Products: 16 MM Crystal Sound Sync Film Camera. Sony VX-1000: 3 Chip Digital video camera. Sony Mavica: 4 Megapixels Digital Still Camera. Canon Rebel: 35MM Still Camera. Basic Lighting Package: 5- 650 Watts Lights. 1-1K. Umbrellas & Reflector. Basic Audio Package: Wireless & HandHeld Mics.
Thanx's Craig Amabello
Contact me @: Laconnection101@aol.com
To see samples of my work Check out: http://www.americanartistsinc.com
