Hello Boston.... Hello Beanywood.... This is your good ole X-Hollywood Reject, Craig Amabello reporting in from the bottom of the barrel of life in New England.
After 5 years of laboring in Vain... Sending out OVER 3,000 RESUMES... Approximately 6,000 Emails.... Countless phone calls.... Attempting to get ANY KIND OF LOW BUDGET FILM & VIDEO PRODUCTION WORK out here in New England.... Offering myself to individuals.... Companies.... Groups of people that may need a Professional DIRECTOR... SHOOTER... OR EDITOR with 25 YEARS EXPERIENCE...... I have come to the sad & Frustrating conclusion that......
It is impossible for ME to get ANY CRAPPY LOW PAYING GIGS OUT HERE DOING ANY CRAPPY LOW BUDGET PRODUCTION!!!!!
I GIVE UP ON THE BOSTON FILM MAKING COMMUNITY.... ON NEW ENGLAND DIRECTORS... ARTISTS... BUSINESSMEN & WOMEN.....
ON BOSTON & NEW ENGLAND PEOPLE IN GENERAL!
OR ANYBODY OUT HERE FOR THAT MATTER..... THAT EXPECTS YOU TO WORK LIKE A FRIGGIN "SLAVE" FOR NOTHING BUT THE BETTERMENT OF THEMSELVES & THE PROMISE OF "MAYBE" PAYING GIGS SOMEDAY IN THE DISTANT FUTURE!!!!!!!!!!
In 12 years.... On my WORST day's in Los Angeles.... On my Worst Gigs.... Shooting PORN.... For Low Budget.... DERANGED, NAZI, SCUM-BAG, FOREIGNERS... I Made MORE Money & was TREATED BETTER..... THAN ANY GIG I HAVE BEEEN OFFERED OUT HERE IN NEW ENGLAND IN 5 YEARS!!!!!!
Just let that sentence sink in for a minute Folks..... Imagine how BAD my Lowest Paying & Worst Days out in HOLLYWOOD could have been....... & THEY STILL HAVE BEEN BETTER DAYS & PAY..... THAN ANY GIGS EVER OFFERED OUT HERE!!!
That THOUGHT alone..... is so very disturbingly twisted & sad on SO MANY LEVELS.... as to actually BOGGLE THE IMAGINATION.... & MELT the Mind of any Vaguely, Self Respecting human being that would make ANYONE HOLD THEIR HANDS UP & SCREAM........
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH THS PICTURE??????".... "WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?"
I AM OFFERING MYSELF LIKE A CHEAP 10 DOLLAR TAIWANESE LADY BOY AT 3 AM ON A SATURDAY NIGHT IN BANGKOK WITH A ROOM FULL OF DRUNKEN, WHITE, AMERICAN BUSINESSMEN...... & I STILL GET NO OFFERS!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..........
What Amazes me is even more IS.... HOW THE HELL DO ALL YOU REST OF YOU PEOPLE OUT HERE IN NEW ENGLAND MAKE A LIVING DOING PROFESSIONAL PRODUCTION WORK ????
I don't have a freakin clue anymore than an Opium smokin Chinamen in a French Whorehouse selling vibrators to Lithuanian Lesbian Nuns, While Catholic Priests try to start their own Daycare center for School boys & can't fathom why..... things ain't going right for them!!!!
I am sick of PRETENTIOUS NOBODIES demanding MEETINGS & offering NO PAYING GIGS in Return! The few offers that I have had have been for NO MONEY... Just A Bunch of TALK about BACK END DEALS that MAY make us all lots of money somewhere in the future for some FAR OFF potential Projects.... BUT FIRST.... I NEED YOU TO WORK FOR ME FOR FREE!
That Crap talk is for LOSERS... BY LOSERS... & let me tell you...
ONE PERSON out of 1,000,000 MAY be worth that kind of CONSIDERATION.....
But none of these EGOTISTICAL... LOUDMOUTH.... SELF BLOATED... SELF RIGHTEOUS... IDIOTS that I have talked to out here are even worth doing business with for ANY money at all!!!!
REALITY CHECK:.... In the REAL WORLD.... You don't have your toilet fixed BUT FIRST TELL THE PLUMBER you need to have a meeting with them so that YOU can CHECK THEM OUT & then explain to them that if this job PAYS NO MONEY.... BUT if it goes ok... In the future you might have several more jobs for them that are much BETTER & ACTUALLY PAY REAL MONEY!!!
In what TWILIGHT ZONE DO THESE "ARTY FARTY"... SELF INVOLVED MORONS come from to think that this is not only NORMAL BEHAVIOR & LOGIC.......
BUT...... THAT IT HAS ACTUALLY BECOME "ACCEPTABLE".... & "STANDARD" PRACTICE OF DOING BUSINESS IN THE "MOVIE WORLD" OUT HERE!!!!!
This is all BULLSHIT SOCIO-PATHIC BEHAVIOR!.....
Don't EVER... let ANYBODY Convince YOU otherwise!!!!!!!!!
My last offer for work came from a Boston Business man that is running the "Boston Music Festival" and all he wanted from me was:
Put together 5 video production crews (of at least 3 people each) to shoot at 5 different nightclubs a night at destinations All over Boston for 5 straight days covering over 130 bands, (Also needing me to SHOOT Camera Myself at one of the clubs each night) & then put together an edited show for Broadcast on Cable, then do a DVD for "Best of performances", another edit for Website exposure, & one more video for the individual bands & only wanted to set up several KEY meetings with me & the other BIG Producers, cable company & businessmen while also scouting the locations of half a dozen nightclubs!
& get this............. HE WAS GOING TO MAKE ME A WEBSITE FOR ALL OF THIS WORK!!!!!!
In the REAL WORLD.... NOT THE BOSTON INSANE WORLD....
This was a $10,000 dollar gig just for myself.... And that would be a rock bottom low end price tag!
And this guy actually had the nerve to tell me that my Credentials were IMPRESSIVE & THAT HE HAD SEEN SAMPLES OF MY WORK & WAS SURE THAT I WAS NOT ONLY TALENTED, BUT HIGHLY SKILLED & THAT I WAS THE MAN FOR THE JOB & THAT HE DESPERATELY NEEDED THE SERVICES OF SOMEONE WITH MY BACKGROUND & KNOWLEDGE!!!!!!
& then he called me & emailed me several times BAFFLED that I wouldn't return his calls & set up Meetings with him & his people!
& then when I Politely & calmly & Professionally explained to this MADMAN That I work for Gringo dollars & actually need to MAKE REAL MONEY to PAY actual bills because My IMAGINARY FRIENDS JUST DON'T LIVE IN MY MIND! He actually got INDIGNANT & MENTIONED THAT HE WAS POTENTIALLY GOING TO THROW A QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS WORTH OF BUSINESS MY WAY & I WAS ACTING EXTREMELY UNPROFESSIONAL BY "BLOWING HIM & HIS OFFER OFF!"
Now Kids.... I ain't smokin crack... & I am not Delusional, or IMAGINING THESE THINGS..... But how could any SANE HUMAN BEING SAY THIS CRAP TO SOMEBODY & NOT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY ARE NOT TAKEN SERIOUSLY??????
So I am Utterly Baffled here folks..... I have no clue as to how I'm going to Survive.... Or how I'm going to get through this drought & RUT I'm in...... But I'll tell you this kids... I am no longer going to SUFFER THESE DELUSIONAL, INSANE, EGOMANIACS OUT HERE IN BOSTON ANY LONGER!!!!!
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...... I HAVE TO HOLD ON TO MY LAST SHRED OF DIGNITY & SAY "SCREW THIS BULLSHIT!"
It's sad.... But there are so many SMALL minded people.... So many JEALOUS PEOPLE OUT HERE IN BOSTON.... SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE.... "L S" (yes, the one from your very own Beanywood site) that act, think, walk & talk like THEY are "IN THE KNOW, HOLLYWOOD SHOW BIZ PEOPLE"...
But in fact are just very egomaniacal, jaded, close minded, Snobby, Elitist individuals that want to keep others down... refuse to Communicate (because god knows I have tried several times to get in touch with her & have always been extremely polite & Ass kissey... But this has been of no avail to me anyways)....
& I truly Hope you Good people out there understand that this type of behavior is SYMPTOMATIC OF NARCISSISTIC, PRETENTIOUS, BETTER THAN THOU, ARTY FARTY I AM "OH SO MUCH MORE HOLLYWOOD THAN YOU CRAP" That is bringing this city into the GUTTER FASTER THAN THE TWIN TOWERS COULD FALL!
We don't need another Arrogant idiot with power trying to build themselves up by tearing others down & feeling oh so SUPERIOR in the Process!!!
Boston people need to be Rational..... Human.... REAL....
STOP PRETENDING YOU'RE FROM HOLLYWOOD!!!!
HOLLYWOOD IS FULL OF SICK, TWISTED SCUM!
If this town ever has a chance of giving Talented, decent, hardworking, creative people a chance.... It needs to get real & come down of it's High Horse & start making sense in the REAL WORLD!
NOT THE STUPID SCREWED UP FAKE WORLD OF HOLLYWOOD!
1 HOLLYWOOD IS BAD ENOUGH KIDS....... WE DON'T NEED ANOTHER!
So to all the Decent, Talented & hardworking people out here in New England (because I know there MUST be at least a few of you out there)..... I wish YOU luck!
I have HIT A BRICK WALL out here in Boston..... I need to Re-Think.... Re-Plan... Re-build, what I was already trying to rebuild from my Twisted life left over from my Hollywood yesteryears.
But I do know this kids from experience.... Don't TRY to ACT like HOLLYWOOD.... HOLLYWOOD SUCKS!
Just be yourselves... Be real... Be decent to other Human beings.... Hollywood is HOLLOW.... SHALLOW.... HEARTLESS.... UNFORGIVING...... CRUEL... EMPTY.... DEAD.... COLD.
Ask yourself this people... Is this what you want to be when YOU grow up? Is that what you Aspire to? I hope not.
Wish me luck kids.....
Because..... As dear ole Bon Scott from AC/DC always said: it's a "LONG WAY TO THE TOP..... IF YOU WANNA ROCK & ROLL"!
Goodbye for now, from your X-Hollywood Show Biz Rebel......... Craig Amabello
P.S: Always remember to check out my work, Thoughts & Life at http://www.youtube.com/CraigsRealTv
Because Boys & Girls.... I will ALways tell it like it is..... EVEN IF IT HURTS Both..... YOU & ME!
I have done my best to have a sense of humor about this site.....
To make fun of the factthat after my very first blog..... Lindsay BLACKLISTED ME!
I truly, honestly, wanted to believe that SHE was joking, having fun, etc.....
But the simple fact that after 31 Blogs..... over 21,000 views.....
I DON'T EVEN RATE AS A SELECTED BLOGGER..... Those in charge here REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE ME!
I did everything that I could to be entertaining.... Funny... Informative... & talk about the Hollywood & the New england film community.
I seriously believe that quite a few people ENJOYED READING MY WHACKY BLOGS about life in Hollywood and the difficulty of breaking into show biz here, on the east coast.... But I will never know.
ONLY THOSE SPECIAL FEW...... THAT FIT INTO "The Beanywood Plan" seem to be Hi-lighted here on Beanywood.
This very EXCLUSIONARY ATTITUDE... AND PETTY POWER PLAYS IS EXACTLY WHAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO WARN PEOPLE ABOUT HERE FROM DAY ONE...
Beanywood (and the many people I have tried to contact about film work out here) seem to be mimicking ALL THE VERY WORST TRAITS OF WHAT'S WRONG WITH HOLLYWOOD!
This is why I left Hollywood after 12 long, hard, soul sucking, heart wrenching years and gave up and came home a COMPLETE BROKEN LOSER OF A MAN!
EGO'S... ATTITUDES... BIG MOUTHS... RAMPANT MEDIOCRITY... PETTINESS... JEALOUSY... FEAR... PHONINESS... HATRED... All abound here on the east coast and in the Film making community. It saddens me and truly Breaks my heart to see this happening here.
I have valuable information and real life stories... DIRECTLY FROM HOLLYWOOD... and I was just trying to pass this information on to THE GOOD, TALENTED AND DECENT PEOPLE OUT HERE ON THE EAST COAST.....
But it seems like it's all been in Vain and I can't even get started again in show business out here because of so many peoples PRETENTIOUS ATTITUDES AND HATRED TOWARDS MYSELF!
I truly believe that I haven't been able to make a dent in Production work out here and meet decent filmmakers because so many people out here... are just PLAIN JEALOUS OF ME AND THE FACT THAT I AM ONE OF THE RARE FEW PEOPLE THAT HAS ACTUALLY LIVED AND WORKED IN HOLLYWOOD!
And to make matters even worse..... now every time I log on to Beanywood.......
ITS FULL OF RACIST CRAP THAT HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH NEW ENGLAND FILM MAKING!!
What the hell is going on here people?????
WHY HAS THIS BECOME A PERSONAL FORUM ON RACISM IN AMERICA?????
WHY AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT IS MENTIONING THIS???
AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT FEELS THIS WAY?
AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT CARES ENOUGH TO GO OUT ON A LIMB AND SPEAK MY MIND OPENLY AND HONESTLY ABOUT THESE DISTURBING THINGS???
HAVE I GONE CRAZY OR IS THIS DUDE POSTING THE WRONG BLOG ON THE WRONG SITE????
HELL YA.... THIS COUNTRY IS A RACIST COUNTRY...... THE POWERS THAT BE DESIGNED IT THIS WAY SO THAT WHILE "WE THE PEOPLE" ALL ARGUE AND BICKER AND HATE EACH OTHER FOR ALL THE STUPID, WRONG, PETTY REASONS..... THOSE IN CHARGE CAN ROB US ALL BLIND AND RAPE THIS COUNTRY OF EVERY LAST GOOD THING THAT USED TO EXIST HERE.........
ITS SAD..... BUT TRUE......... AND MAKES ME SO SAD...... BUT THIS AINT THE DAMN PLACE TO BE POSTING ALL THIS CRAP!!!!
HOW IRONIC AM I?????... I SHOULDN'T BE POSTING THIS CRAP EITHER!
I'M AN IDIOT!
BUT AT LEAST I UNDERSTAND THAT I'M AN IDIOT AND SHOULDN'T BE POSTING THIS CRAP HERE!
I hope some of you decent, creative people out there are living your dreams and enjoying your lives!
Rock on........ Bon Scott says Hello.
From your Deranged..... and yet, amazingly still happy and friendly X-Hollywood Reject..... Craig Amabello
PS: Don't forget to check out my INSANE VLOGS ON YOUTUBE!
Craig Amabello says: having a good attitude in life is very important.... Especially if you chose show biz for your profession.... When your job as a REAL person... Is to make FAKE reality seem real.... It can all get pretty damn surreal, bizarre and twisted up inside your head... So having a sense of humor about it all is so VERY important!
Unfortunately my attitude confuses people a lot.... I am very sarcastic and dark... But I am also very friendly and helpful and I love to make fun of everything.... And I try my best to laugh and have a good time no matter where I am, what I am doing, or who I am with.
Unfortunately many times, people confuse my easy going attitude with weakness.... and my clowning around makes people think I'm a bloody moron... So it just sucks when people try to take advantage of my good natured & easy going ways.
Which leads me to my Topic of this blog..... ATTITUDES...... Hollywood can be a very closed, tight knit place where it is almost impossible to break into the business because only a handful of people truly do run the entire town. And many people develop serious attitudes in their attempt to mask or cover up their own insecurities & weaknesses so they can act all big & important.... It can be most painful & heartbreaking just trying to make it through another day in Hollywood & if you can't find a way to laugh at all this insanity.... You can go CRAZY!
I left Hollywood after 12 long years of struggling & frustration dealing with so many BAD attitudes and all I was doing was just trying to better my life & get to a higher position & work on bigger & better paying productions.... But for the life of me, I just couldn't find the right door to open, or the right window to climb in to better my position in the hard, cold world of Hollywood.
All my struggles where in vain... I never did better myself.... My attempt to climb that elusive ladder of success, was a complete failure!.... I finally gave in & had to admit.... That I was a loser & that Hollywood had Kicked me like a raw dog & beaten me to the bone & slammed me into the ground like a chewed up rag doll!
But I can still laugh & smile when I look back fondly of my days in LA.
I learned a lot working on many low paying jobs doing camera work and editing. The things I learned could never be taught in a class room, because once you get into the REAL WORLD of Hollywood production... you find that many supposed rules, just fly out the window. The directors drunk & in a bad mood, The actors been doing coke for days & can't remember their lines, the DP was dating the actress & now hates her & wants to make her look horrible, the production manager has only booked talent that he thinks he can have sex with & they have no talent at all, the producer is making last minute changes with actresses because he had sex with a girl the night before & promised her a role in the movie & she can't act at her way out of a paper bag, the owner of the shooting location turns out to be a crystal meth addict & still wants to conduct drug deals while we are trying to work...... & on & on...... but you learn that you still have to get through the day somehow & COMPLETE the project.
Now I know this may all sound far fetched & weird to you people, & probably doesn't occur on a George Lucas picture... But in the Hollywood world that I worked in... "The Low budget world".... this kind of stuff occurred all the time! And believe me, it was fascinating at times to work around all these obstacles & still get the days work done.... but it just put a lot of undue pressure on me to work under these conditions.
That's why I so desperately wanted to find better paying gigs with bigger & more professional production companies, but I just had know idea how to go about meeting the right people. I was making $300 a day as my rate as a cameraman & I worked approx. 3 days a week shooting & I also did editing 2 to 3 days a week on top of that for various different rates.... Many projects I shot, I also ended up editing... And believe me, when the cast & crew are all in a bad mood for the entire shoot & the script goes out the window & the shooting is horrible & I end up having a producer breathing down my neck to complete a project because the release date is 5 days away.... THE PRESSURE JUST BECOMES ENORMOUS!
But I developed a thick skin & learned to laugh at everything & tried not to let it get to me... otherwise you would go insane! I know I have a weird attitude & very sarcastic out look on everything... but no matter who I worked for, or what I was being paid, wether they were big movie stars, (yes, once in awhile I actually did work with big movie stars), or just brand new unknown actors, I prided myself on my ability to be helpful, happy, and professional in the sense that I always tried to do the best that I could under whatever circumstances we were shooting under.
I found that it was very important to have a sense of humor when you find yourself working 12 to 14 hour days... day in & day out under such pressure to complete projects on time & on budget. But many of the people that I worked with, were just miserable. They would start the day at 7 am complaining and bitching about how they hated everything and it never made sense to me why these people where even in show biz in the first place if they hated it so much. So I always chose to be the nice guy... The helpful guy... If a light needed to be placed I would place it, if a chair needed to be moved I'd move it... If the talent needed water, I would go & get it for them... There was nothing I wouldn't do to try & make the day just a little bit nicer, a little bit happier, so that we could all accomplish the job at hand.... Which was getting the movie shot!
Now I have only worked on a handful of productions out here on the east coast since I have been back from LA & the one thing that I have found is that all anyone seems to do out here is TALK ABOUT HOLLYWOOD.... Everyone seems so HELL BENT on BEING like Hollywood.... Acting like they think Hollywood is.... Using fancy terms.... Big titles.... almost putting more importance on talking about a shot with the proper vernacular & Buzz words that would make them seem like Hollywood big shots, than to actually just do the shot without all the damn Jingo & jargon that would befit a Hollywood production!
On one shoot I worked on as a grip making $4.16 cents an hour (yes, I actually figured out how much I was being paid by the hour) I was actually fired after the DP asked me several times to get him some C-64's... This was in front of 6 or 8 crew members (I never could figure out why the hell there was so many crew on this shoot, we were shooting in a small cramped basement room... & none of them seemed to be doing anything.... That's another pet peeve of mine, directors having huge crews just to satisfy & stroke their damn ego's).... Anyways, I scratched my head & felt like a fool in front of all these people looking at me, but I had no idea what the hell a C-64 was..... Finally after almost 2 minutes, the DP looked at me & said, "The Clothes Pin, I need a couple clothes pins!"
Now why couldn't he have just said that in the first place once he realized that I didn't know what a C-64 was.... BUT NO..... This guy just wanted it all to sink in & deliberately wanted to belittle me in front of a room full of useless people..... He actually enjoyed waiting for me to ask him, "I don't know what you want?"... Should I have known a clothes pin is called a C-64?... Sure I should have, but jesus, couldn't he have cut me some slack?
Previous to this, he had spent the whole day barley even acknowledging me as I spent the day bending over backwards, keeping my mouth shut, running extension cords all over the place, getting lights, stands, gels & scrims & doing the best I could to help the production along. It wasn't as if I was drunk, screwing around, talking, being disruptive & just hanging out all day doing nothing... I actually worked hard lugging some heavy equipment around & being right by his side to get him whatever he needed & he never once even said hello to me, or even thanked me when I ran around getting stuff like a good little gofer grip.
I mean, this guy came in with an attitude that was high & mighty right from the start of the day because he was the Director of Photography & I could sense that I was just a lowly grip (not to mention that I was probably twice his age, which made me feel like even more of a loser than I already felt)... & I just went about the day doing what I was told to do with no complaints whatsoever..... And then at the end of the day when he fired me, he seemed to really enjoy it!
On another shoot I worked on as a cameraman, this young kid, an Emerson graduate, was all talk about Hollywood this & Hollywood that... He talked loud & made damn sure that the 8 people waiting around could hear him and understood that HE was the Director of Photography.... This guy just reeked of ATTITUDE... & It just seemed crazy to me to be so hung up on titles & to cop an attitude in front of all these people..... It was just embarrassing.... But I shut my mouth because I had worked with the director before & I liked him & didn't want to cause problems on the shoot.
So like an idiot, the director & I did all of the lugging of equipment up 3 flights of stairs, while this DP & his assistant went & got pizza! I bent over backwards to be friendly & polite & asked him what I could do to help & he just treated me like I was some homeless bum off the street looking for a bottle of booze.
The final straw was when he asked me to go downstairs to grab another sandbag & when I did, he couldn't believe I just dropped it on the floor 5 feet away from him... he actually expected me to bring it right to him & put it exactly where he was going to tell me to! I fumed, but kept my composure for the good of the shoot & just quietly walked way & waited for him to be ready.
After this DP spent over 3 hours setting up 2 lights & a jib, keeping 8 people waiting... he turned to the assembled cast & said, "Welcome to Hollywood!"
The point of all this is: That I came back east because I was fed up with the Hollywood attitudes & now all I seem to be surrounded by is people with A HOLLYWOOD ATTITUDE..... And we aint even in Hollywood!
Its nice to know the right terminology & the proper things you need to do to complete a production.... But so far, out here..... I just seem to run into people were its ALL ABOUT the Show biz Jargon... The Hollywood Glitz.... It's more important to look & sound & act the Hollywood part.... Than it is to just COMPLETE THE PRODUCTION!
So the lesson to be learned out here kids is this: ...... What's more important to you? To do a good job, be creative, make some money & be proud of your work......
Or to look & act COOL like you think HOLLYWOOD big wigs would & to slow down the shoot with a bunch of garbage talk, debate, useless fancy terms, Titles, big Ego's & ATTITUDES?????......
I know there are some really cool & talented people out here just waiting to shine..... And I hope that these people that I have been dealing with are NOT THE NORM..... That they are FREAKS..... & do not represent the basic attitude of most film makers out here on the east coast.
Good luck people in your search for your dreams..... I hope you do well.... treat people with respect & decency.... & create the ART that YOU want to make!
I would love it if you PEOPLE would make some comments on what I have written..... Tell me I'm wrong.... Give me your opinion..... Let people know about YOUR experiences in film making out here on the east coast..... We all need to share each others experiences.... good and bad.... Maybe that way, it can help us all learn to make a better film community out here on the east coast that may someday rival Hollywood!
For I am: Craig Amabello, an X-Hollywood Reject!
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Hello Beanywood..... Hello New England film makers...
Craig Amabello here, checkinin from the twilight zone where I have been floating aimlessly after welding Jet propulsion packs to kittens and launching them into outer space just so I could get a better view of planet earth!
I have a very serious question to ask... Have I personally done something wrong to the people here at Beanywood? Have I kicked their precious little doggy? Have I squashed their darling lil Kitty?
I ask this, because after 1 year and 27 blogs that I have written on this site and over 21,000 views.... I HAVE NEVER ONCE BEEN PLACED AS A "SELECTED BLOGGER"!
WHY??????....... DID I SAY SOMETHING TO OFFEND SOMEBODY?...... ARE MY BLOGS THAT CRAPPY?
I am sure many more people would stumble on my blogs, but how can they ever find them? I truly wish I knew what to do to get my blogs placed on the front page under the selected blogger section. I constantly see the same 1 or 2 people with 3 & sometimes 4 blogs in a row placed under the Selected blogger section. It makes it look like those few people are the ONLY ones writing Blogs here on Beanywood.
As childish & stupid as this sounds.... MY FEELINGS ARE HURT!.... I have even emailed the people that run this site & never heard back from them about this question. I do the best I can to make my writing INFORMATIVE..... TOPICAL.... HUMOROUS.... and POSITIVE about movie making here in New England.
Now I know that my blogs tend to get very cynical & negative at times, but I always try to have something POSITIVE to say at least once in each blog. But if my blogs are cynical, its just because I am commenting on what is happening to ME out here in New England trying DESPERATELY to get production work here on the east coast.
So if any of you people out there like reading my weird & hopefully humorous & informative blogs.... I would love it if you could let the owners of this site know that! ...... Or even leave some comments so that I would know if any of you out their like my Blogging style. Sometimes I feel so alone out here in outer space.... like nobody even gets my blogs... Or has any of their own stories to tell about production work out here in New England.
I am here to entertain & to inform..... & I hope I have done a little bit of both for you people who want to know more about film making out here in New England and film making in Hollywood.
Because I do know a little bit about both, because I am: Craig Amabello an X-Hollywood Reject.
PLEASE CHECK OUT SOME OF MY ROCK VIDEOS THAT I DIRECTED, SHOT AND EDITED OUT IN HOLLYWOOD AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK.... I would love to hear what people think of my work... I need feed back to know if my work is any good or not:
just go to: http://www.hollywoodeasttv.com/profile/craigamabello
ALSO CHECK OUT MY WHACKY VLOGS ON YOUTUBE.... THEY MAKE ME LOOK LIKE A COMPLETE IDIOT... BUT MIGHT JUST MAKE "YOU" FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOUR OWN LIFE!
http://www.youtube.com/craigsrealtv
Please Comment.... Rate.... and subscribe to my channel..... I always love to hear peoples opinions... even if its negative... As long as its real... & sincerely meant..... I don't care what you say about me..... BUT JUST SAY SOMETHING!
Hello All you good people out there in Boston & New England. Its your fine & friendly X-Hollywood Reject, Craig Amabello, reporting in from the local Nut house... Or is this a Crack house? I always get those two mixed up.
Anyways, I got a PAYING GIG!.... Yippee, Yahoooo. There actually are real business people out here with money & a budget. Can you believe that? I am one of 6 cameramen shooting a band tomorrow night at the Rock 101 Sky show in Manchester NH at the Arms Park.
The name of the group is The Gary Hoey band. They are headlining the show tomorrow night & I hear some great things about this band. Some real talented guys playing rock & roll. The buzz is that a few weeks ago Gary Hoey played an acoustic live song "Only Human" at the Rock 101 radio show & ever since then the song has been the most requested song & they have been playing it a lot & it seems like the band is really starting to take off here in New england. So being the smart guys that they seem to be, they want a video shot of this new hit of theirs, so they hired a BRILLIANT & TALENTED guy like myself, along with 5 other cameramen to capture tomorrow nights live performance at the Sky show.
So if any of you Cool people out there wanna see some really good bands, & the Headliner "Gary Hoey".... Come on down for a FREE CONCERT courtesy of Rock 101 in Manchester NH. They have the greatest FIREWORKS Show you will ever see in New England ( Hence, the name... Rock 101's Sky Show).
Hell, maybe you people can even say hello to me, or Throw Rocks at me, or Money... (But if your going to throw rocks at me, all I ask is that could you attach a hundred dollar bill to it, so that I can at least pay for some of my Medical bills).
Also on another note, I have been attempting to help out some Local small business people. (Well actually, it is a girl that wants to start a stripper bachelor party company... But hell, I'm all for young, entrepreneurial women empowering themselves by starting up their own business out here in New England... So I'm always willing to lend a hand). So being the nice guy that I am, I offered her as a sign of good will & faith, to shoot some head shots of her & some sexy outfits to help promote herself on the website she is building. She told me that she has LOTS of other girls that are going to need head shots & Photography & if I shoot her stills first..... FOR FREE....... She would get me a lot of work working with other girls.... Hmmmmmmm.... Where have I heard that before?
So anyways, I book studio time, on my dime, shoot some decent photo's of her, & the whole time I'm doing the shoot with her, she keeps mentioning that she wants to do a Porn movie. I let it slide & continue the shoot, (being the true Professional that I am) & she continues to mention her desire to do a Porno movie through out the entire still shoot. So I finally tell her, "Look, if you want to do a porn, well fine, we'll book another date & do a video shoot then". Long story short, I finish the shoot, go home, burn a cd, send them out to her that night & I wait a week...... & never hear a word from her. I finally email her, asking how she liked the photo's & she said there were some really nice pictures that I took, but she wished the lighting was better on some of the other pictures. (hell, I admit, my weakness is in lighting & we rushed through the shoot in 2 hours). Then she tells me, "When I learn how to light better, she MIGHT let me do a Porn movie of her!.... & then she stated that ALL these other girls that wanted head shots before were now suddenly only TWO girls & that they wouldn't be available for a few months!".... The Gall of some people.... I was totally SCAMMED by this young chick & you wonder why it is that I FAILED in HOLLYWOOD!
Then just last week, I received an email from a model that said she wanted me to do a shoot of her for the suicide girls website. She said she needed 3 sets of pictures & suicide girls would pay $800.00 for the entire shoot. She stated that she had no money to pay me but that if I would shoot these stills for her on SPEC, that she would split the $800.00 with me once she got paid. I reluctantly agreed, (still having a bad taste in my mouth after last months still shoot with the little scam artist stripper girl). So I call her & tell her that I have booked studio time & was ready to do the shoot & she explains to me that she wants to do the shoot out doors NAKED at a local cemetery! I tell her that I am not comfortable with that because we would be breaking the law doing nudity out in a public place & that is not how I do business. (As whacky as I may appear to you people, I truly am a professional, & always work within the law). My gigs may seem weird to some, but I WILL SHOOT ALMOST ANYTHING, as long as it is LEGAL... This is how I learned to survive out in Hollywood, & you have to understand that I do not JUDGE people by the gigs I do, or what they do... A job is a job & I always do the best that I can to be professional, do a great job & to treat clients with courtesy, dignity & respect. It is not for me to judge what others do..... And if a client wants to hang upside down, naked, with her hair on fire & crocodiles snapping at her head.... Well that is just fine with me, as long as they understand exactly what it is they are getting into & how potentially dangerous something like this may be! Anyways...... After booking studio time again, & explaining what we could shoot at the studio to this wanna-be suicide girl.... She completely blows me off & I never hear from her again!
So does this give you people some kind of clue as to why I am a failure in life, with my show biz career, with my directing, with my video & photography business.... & my UTTER FAILURE IN HOLLYWOOD? After all these years in show biz..... I am still naive & foolish enough to take people at their word. To allow people to LIE to me... To SCAM me..... because I still want to believe in people & take them at their word & not try to judge them.... When the hell will I EVER LEARN???????
Well, that's all I have to say for now good people of Boston.... I hope some of you out there are being productive... Making money... Creating some cool, Fun Art...... I know I am still struggling everyday to barely get by, but I refuse to quit!.... But I have to admit.... there isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I was back in Hollywood!
This has been another show biz blog on "Notes from the edge"... from your friendly X-Hollywood Reject..... Craig Amabello.
These days, porn is on everyones mind it seems. From wholesome young kids in school, middle aged working women joking at the office, to creepy old perverted men working lonely 3rd shift security jobs. So why should Kevin Smith be any different?
Kevin Smith is the writer/director of Clerks I & II and many other funny, successful flicks. He tells the average males down & out loser stories better than most, and has an empathy for that kind of character.
So it is of no surprise that his latest flick, "Zak and Miri make a porno", a 25 million dollar budgeted feature from the Weinstein Co. is going into production January 2008 in Pittsburgh Penn.
kevin calls it "a love story. Zak and Miri just want to make a good old-fashioned dirty movie because they are in deep financial trouble and need to raise money fast.”
The film will star Seth Rogen (knocked up) and Elizabeth Banks (The 40 year old virgin) along with Jason Mewes (kevin's long time side kick "Jay" from Clerks I and II and Jay and Silent Bob go to hollywood fame). There are several other key pieces of casting not yet revealed. Kevin Smith stated: “I can’t wait to reveal the rest of the cast. A key piece of the puzzle just fell into place yesterday, and it’s a genius bit of casting. This is gonna be fun”.
Is this movie a gamble? I think not. Porn is everywhere. Porn is legitimate. It's not something dirty, hidden under your uncles bed anymore. Porn has become so acceptable to the masses that the average person can talk openly about it at the office, or see references to it on network television on a daily basis. This is all thanks to the Internet, which from day one, has fed the porn hungry masses and has brought hardcore pornography into practically everybody's homes.
kevin never hid his love of porn. Starting from Clerks I, with the video clerk ordering despicable porn titles such as anal rump rangers in front of a horrified women patron, to Clerks II where they put on a full blown donkey porn show. Porn references were always littered through out his scripts. Anyone that was paying attention could see where he was heading with all of this.
If anyone can pull this off, a main stream, big budget flick about porn, Kevin Smith just might be the man to do it. He has the average mans sensibilities. He knows how to speak to, and reach his audience. With this movie, Kevin has just decided to take his love of porn and the average persons love of porn, to the next logical step.
Is this the first big budget mainstream porn movie to reach the masses? No... It has been done before: National Lampoon's "Barely Legal" released in 2005 was about 3 high schoolers that made their own porn and it did alright business, but it wasn't a huge success.
The Weinstein brothers are no dummy's. They know the time is right to make a blockbuster out of a main stream movie about porn, and Kevin Smith is the perfect director to help bring it all together.
This does bum me out a little, because I have been threatening to make a mainstream comedy about the porn world for years. Leave it to Kevin Smith to beat Craig Amabello to the punch.... But he has far more experience and skill at these things than I do. This is what I get for sitting on my ass and not actually getting to work on MY script and start shooting MY own movie about the porn world..... A world in which I am most intimately acquainted.... But I'm sure there's room for several blockbuster movies about porn and I am hoping that mine will be one of them!
