Hello all you fine people of Beanywood... This is your Truly Demented, X-Hollywood Reject.... Craig Amabello reporting in from my under ground bunker deep in the woods of NH.

  So how are you all doing? I hope your all doing better than I am. As usual, I'm falling apart at the seems, clinging to my last shred of dignity & self respect, as I battle the never ending demons of trying to get REAL, PROFESSIONAL, MOVIEMAKING WORK OUT HERE ON THE EAST COAST!

  I actually offered myself up for FREE to shoot a movie in Rhode Island & all I asked was a token sum for GAS money & I was graciously TURNED DOWN!

  Then I offered to shoot behind the scenes documentary footage (My specialty in Hollywood, something I did all the time) for this BIG BUDGETED FEATURE FILM that is being shot this month in Mass. I wrote to this director? several times & said that it would be an honor & a privilege to work with real Hollywood Pro's for a change & that I would be most happy to shoot documentary footage for him for FREE!

 And do you know what this arrogant Hollywood Wanna-be actually said to me in his email that took 3 weeks to return?.... He actually had the gaul to say that "IF " I was chosen to work for him for FREE, he would have to THINK about my OFFER! He actually mentioned in the email that I was being overly enthusiastic & PRESUMING THAT BECAUSE I WAS OFFERING TO WORK FOR FREE... DIDN'T ACTUALLY MEAN THAT I WOULD GET THE JOB!!!!

  Now maybe I'm crazy.... But is this NOT INSANE???? I'm a grown man, offering my 25 years of professional knowledge in video production, my fairly respectable resume, & my 12 years of experience spent working in Hollywood & I CANNOT EVEN GET RESPECT ... OR THE DAMN JOB.... WHEN I OFFER TO WORK FOR SOMEBODY OUT HERE ON THE EAST COAST...... FOR FREE!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.........

PLEASE GOOD PEOPLE OF BEANYWOOD....... PLEASE TELL ME...... AM I WRONG TO FEEL FRUSTRATED?

AM I RUDE & ARROGANT AND PUSHY TO PRESUME THAT I SHOULD GET A GIG BECAUSE I OFFER TO WORK FOR FREE FOR OVER A MONTH OF PRODUCTION?...

HAVE I LOST MY MIND???.... AM I THE ONLY PERSON HERE THAT FEELS THAT THIS IS ALL JUST A LIL BIT PERVERSE???

PEOPLE, HONESTLY, I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU.... WHAT DO YOU PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THIS?

I THINK I AM LOSING MY MIND...

I FEEL LIKE THE WORLD HAS BEEN TURNED UPSIDE DOWN & INSIDE OUT & I AM CLINGING TO THE VERY EDGES OF REALITY......

IF I WASN'T SO DAMN STUBBORN & STUPID I SHOULD BLOW MY HEAD OFF... BUT I REFUSE TO GIVE IN & GIVE UP!

I still have a dream... & I shall make my DREAM come true!

But not all is lost in my Shattered, Demented, Horribly, Twisted, Upside down world..... I did get a cameraman gig shooting at the Verizon Wireless Arena in Manchester NH, shooting the Wolves football team & the Monarchs hockey team come fall. So now all I need to do is find another 24 days a month of work so I can make enough money to get on welfare & collect Food stamps!

And on another UP note..... I have actually uploaded over 110 video's on youtube! They are my Vlogs about life in America AFTER Hollywood destroys you & many other such wonderful topics such as SEX, DRUGS & ROCK & ROLL...... I also have Music videos that I have done, A couple short Documentaries that I have done & various Live concert footage that I have shot.......

SO PLEASE PEOPLE.... COME & CHECK OUT MY VIDEO'S ON YOUTUBE....

PLEASE SUBSCRIBE IF YOU WANT TO..... OR RATE MY VIDEO'S... OR PLEASE, IF ANYTHING.... LEAVE COMMENTS ON WHAT YOU THINK.

I would love to hear from all of you Beanywood people & I would LOVE to know what you think of my work & my truly Demented Videos.

SO PLEASE CHECK OUT: HTTP://WWW.YOUTUBE.COM/CRAIGSREALTV

I hope you are all living your dreams... having fun & enjoying yourselves...... I most certainly am not.... BUT, I intend to change all that very soon.

Thanx's,
Your Truly Demented Reporter of Life & X-Hollywood Reject Craig Amabello...... signing out